No era una opción. Tenía todo apost

No era una opción. Tenía todo apostado en esta nueva vida y tenía que hacerla funcionar, solo yo podía hacerlo. Sequé mis lágrimas y dormí con mayor tranquilidad.

Volví a aceptar las invitaciones a su departamento. Cociné para él y él me sorprendió preparando platillos sencillos para mí. Estábamos en sintonía, regresamos a los días en donde los dos podíamos hablar con una simple mirada. Sus ojos decían mucho de lo que callaba y era imposible ignorarlos. Las veladas donde nos besábamos en su cama hasta caer rendidos por el sueño eran algo para recordar, para guardar por siempre en el corazón.

- No puedo dejarme llevar e ir más lejos.

Amaba sus labios tomando control sobre los míos. Su sonrojo, sus suspiros, los pequeños mordiscos y el roce de nuestras lenguas. Adoraba verlo iniciando los actos de amor. Era un tierno y un completo apasionado. Comenzó a mostrarme la honestidad de su cariño. No podía cambiar su parte agresiva por una amorosa pero era inteligente en solo mostrarla cuando las situaciones lo ameritaban. Senpai era el hombre más inteligente en ese y en muchos otros aspectos.

Me sometía al constante peligro al estar tan cerca de él, al perderme en sus labios. Cada beso le abría paso a todas mis heridas haciendo imposible que cicatrizaran. Con cada caricia me sentía amado pero también temía a la tentación tan grande y a la lujuria. Mi deseo fue calmado con toda esa droga pero jamás la pasión por él. Estar cerca era una amenaza para la sensibilidad de mi piel y sentidos pues podía enloquecerme y provocar que mis reacciones biológicas se desataran.

- Q-quiero que siempre… estemos juntos… ahhh…

Senpai podía aventurarse a besar mi cuello, acariciar mi espalda, mis caderas, a volverme loco y a perderse entre mi cabello.

- Nngh… ¿t-tú me amas?

Sus caricias se detuvieron. Sus labios se apartaron y enfocó sus ojos sobre los míos.

- ¿Por qué preguntas eso tan de repente? Su voz también estaba entrecortada, él perdía el aliento como yo.

Observaba con detenimiento sus orbes color miel. Me envolvían, divagaba en ellos. Los miraba desde abajo y sentía como me acusaba cuando la realidad era otra. Era la culpa la que me hacía verlos de esa forma.

- Senpai…

Lo llamaba inconscientemente así cuando me hallaba encerrado en esas cuatro paredes con él, cuando sentía que en el mundo solo estamos los dos, cuando sentía que volvía a ser mío y me veía como antes. Su respuesta siempre era el desconcierto en su rostro, eso me arrastraba de regreso de mi ilusión. Nada podía ser como fue.

- ¿E-esta vez… podemos estar juntos? ¿Puedo quedarme aquí?

- ¡Oi! ¿¡Qué pasa!?... ¿Chizuru?

Sin darme cuenta lo abracé y comencé a llorar. Senpai intentó calmarme y se preocupó por mi reacción, era muy extraño mi cambio de humor. Sobaba mi espalda y desaparecía mi tristeza. Le dije que era estrés acumulado pero no me creyó, él sabía perfectamente que algo ocultaba. Las mentiras constantes me encerraban y asfixiaban, causaban que al mirarlo no dejará de verme reflejado y darme cuenta que pronto todo saldría a la luz. Deseaba abrazarlo por una eternidad y besarlo por otra más. A partir de entonces vigiló mis conductas pero yo también me di cuenta de las suyas. No era el único que guardaba secretos. De vez en cuando lo miraba salir del laboratorio para hablar por teléfono; parecía querer ocultarse pero al mismo tiempo nunca mintió al decir que era algo importante que atender. La frecuencia siempre era distinta, cada dos semanas, un mes, de un día para el otro. Tenía curiosidad pues siempre que terminaba sus llamadas se veía deprimido. Era una tristeza que nunca había visto en él. Y fue un día por la tarde que tuve oportunidad de oír esa conversación.

- Si, siento molestar, soy yo otra vez.

- ¿Con quién está hablando Senpai?

Salí porque el profesor Fukushima me citó en su oficina y regresé al laboratorio. Estaba abriendo la puerta cuando lo escuché y decidí quedarme tras la puerta ya que me intrigaba bastante que estuviera teniendo problemas. Él solía guardarse todo y yo solo quería apoyarlo.

- Llamo para saber si ha tenido información de [Morinaga Tetsuhiro].

- ¿Esta… buscándome? Mi corazón se detuvo por un momento.

- Sí, es la persona de la que le había dado la descripción. Su voz se escuchaba angustiada.

Mi respiración se aceleró y sentía que mis piernas no podrían sostenerme, comencé a temblar.

- ¿Todavía nada?... está bien, al menos es un alivio saber que no han ingresado a un paciente con su descripción.

Se despidió y tan pronto como colgó volvió a llamar. Oí al menos tres llamadas más a hospitales y una a la morgue; esa última había sido la más preocupante y para él la más difícil. Para cuando él terminó yo estaba sentado en el suelo, llorando y tapando mi boca para que no alcanzara a escuchar mi sollozo. Por un momento logré ver todo viniéndose abajo.

- Senpai está buscando a Morinaga…

No quería derrumbarme pero parecía ser mi inevitable destino. De aquella semilla de preocupación comenzaban a brotar la culpa, la inseguridad y el miedo. Estaba aterrado de que todo lo que había logrado hubiera sido en vano, que mi meta hubiera perdido total sentido. Me concentré tanto en mis pensamientos que no escuché los pasos acercándose. Senpai salió luego de varios minutos y se tropezó con mis piernas. Quizá salía por aire fresco o cualquier otra razón pero terminó cayendo en cuanto cruzó la puerta.

- ¿¡Qué imbécil se sienta afuera del laboratorio!?

Se levantaba mientras sobaba su cara. Estaba furioso hasta que volteó a verme y yo lagrimeaba.

- Ya no podrás encontrar a ese [Morinaga Tetsuhiro] que buscas.

- ¿C-chizuru? ¿Qué haces aquí? ¿Qué te pasa?

- Por favor déjame… quiero estar solo, no quiero que esas tan amable conmigo.

Tapaba mi cara con mis mechones y él me descubría el rostro. Se arrodillaba junto a mí y lo veía preocupado. Secaba mis lágrimas con delicadeza y me daba un beso en la frente. Me abrazaba y mientras acariciaba mi espalda sentía su corazón cerca.

- ¿Ya vas a decirme que es lo que sucede? Él no lo notaba pero susurraba en mi oreja.

- S-solo me caí. La peor excusa jamás inventada.

- ¿Te caíste?... Se alejó para analizarme. - ¿Crees que no me doy cuenta? Últimamente solo te la pasas llorando y con una cara de angustia. Si pasa algo malo deberías de decírmelo.

- ¿Si eso crees por qué no eres el primero en hablar?

- En realidad… no pasa nada.

Su expresión me revelaba su incredulidad, tenía razón, yo mentía. Llegaba por las noches a mi departamento demasiado atormentado y las terribles ideas que me amenazaban me causaban insomnio. La noche se convertía en amanecer a través de mi ventana y mis ojos no se cerraban. Quería ocultarlo de Senpai pero mis orejas y mis bajos reflejos me delataban. Comencé a fallar en mis estudios y a quedarme dormido en clase; un par de veces Senpai me despertó y recuerdo morir de vergüenza.

- ¿Qué estoy haciendo?

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It was not an option. I had everything bet in this new life and I had to make it work, only I could do it. I wiped my tears and slept with greater peace of mind.I went back to accept the invitations to his Department. I cooked for him, and he was surprised preparing simple dishes for me. We were in tune, we return to the days where the two could speak with a simple glance. His eyes said much of what was silent and it was impossible to ignore them. Evenings where we kissed in bed till you drop exhausted by sleep were something to remember, to keep forever in the heart.-I can not I take and go further.I loved her lips taking control over the mine. Your blush, their sighs, small bites and our tongues touching. He loved to see him initiating acts of love. It was a tender and passionate about full. He began to show me the honesty of his love. It could not change its aggressive part by a loving but it was smart in just to show it when the situations merited it. Senpai was the man more intelligent in that and in many other aspects.I subjected to constant danger to being so close to him, to lose myself in her lips. Each Kiss opened passage to all my wounds making it impossible that cicatrizaran. With every touch, I felt loved, but he also feared the big temptation and lust. My desire was calm with all this drug but never the passion for it. Closer was a threat to the sensitivity of my skin and senses could go mad me and cause my biological reactions are unleashed.-Q-I want to always we are... together... ahhh...Senpai could venture out to kiss my neck, caressing my back, my hips, going crazy and getting lost between my hair.-Nngh... t - you love me?His caresses were stopped. They withdrew their lips and she focused her eyes on mine.-Why questions that suddenly? His voice was also choppy, he lost the breath like me.He watched carefully your orbs color honey. I wrapped, he rambled on them. I looked at them from below, and felt like I accused when the reality was another. It was guilt that made me to see them that way.-Senpai...He called it unconsciously as well when I was locked up in those four walls, when I felt that the only world are both, when I felt that it was mine once again and saw me as before. His answer was always confusion on her face, that I drew back from my dream. Nothing could be as it was.- E - this time we can be... together? I stay here?-Oi! What's going on!? ... Do Chizuru?Without realizing I hugged him and began to cry. Senpai tried to calm me and I worry about my reaction, my change of mood was very strange. It sobaba my back and my sadness disappeared. I told him that it was accumulated stress but not believed me, he perfectly knew that something hiding. The constant lies me confined and struggled, causing that to looking at it you will not see me reflected and realize that everything would soon be in the light. I wanted to hug him for eternity and kiss him by another one. Thereafter she monitored my behavior but I also realized theirs. It was not the only one who kept secrets. Occasionally he looked at him out of the laboratory for talking on the phone; He seemed to want to hide but at the same time never lied by saying that it was something important to attend. The frequency was always different, every two weeks, one month, one day to the other. I was curious because whenever it ended their calls looked depressed. It was a sadness that I had never seen in him. And it was a day in the afternoon I had opportunity to hear that conversation.-Yes, I am upset, I am again.-Who are you talking a Senpai?I left because the Professor Fukushima quoted me in his office and returned to the laboratory. He was opening the door when I heard it and decided to stay behind the door since it intrigued me enough that you were having problems. He used to save everything and I just wanted to support him.-I call to find out if you had [Morinaga Tetsuhiro] information.-This... looking for me? My heart stopped for a moment.-Yes, it is the person that gave him the description. His voice was heard distraught.My breathing quickened and I felt that my legs could not hold me, I began to tremble.-Still nothing?... okay, at least it's a relief to know that they have not entered a patient with its description.You were dismissed and as soon as he hung up again to call. I heard at least three more calls to hospitals and a morgue; This last had been the most worrying and for him the hardest. When it ended I was sitting on the floor, crying and covering my mouth so that you don't reach to hear my sob. For a moment I could see everything coming down.-Morinaga looking Senpai...I didn't want to bring me down but it seemed to be my inevitable fate. That seed of concern began to sprout the guilt, insecurity and fear. I was terrified of everything you had accomplished would have been in vain, my goal had lost total consciousness. I focused so much on my mind that I didn't hear the footsteps approaching. Senpai came out after several minutes and stumbled across my legs. Perhaps he came out for fresh air or any other reason but it ended up falling as soon as it crossed the door.-What imbecile sits outside the laboratory!He got up as he sobaba his face. I was furious until he turned around to see me and I weeping.-No longer can find that [Morinaga Tetsuhiro] that you are looking for.-Do c-chizuru? What do you do here? You what?-Please let me... I want to be alone, I will not as such so kind to me.It covered my face with my locks and he found me face. She knelt next to me and saw him worried. It dried my tears gently and gave me a kiss on the forehead. I hugged and while he caressed my back felt his heart closely.-Are already going to tell me what happens? He didn't notice it but you whispered in my ear.-S-single I fell. The worst excuse ever invented.-Do you fall?... He walked away to analyze me. -Do you think I did not realize? Go you lately just crying and with a face of anguish. If something bad happens you should let me know.-If that you think why you're not the first to speak?-Actually... nothing happens.His expression revealed me its unbelief, he was right, I was lying. He arrived at night at my apartment too tormented and terrible ideas threatening me caused me insomnia. The night turned into dawn through my window and my eyes were not closed. I wanted to hide it from Senpai, but my ears and my low reflexes betrayed me. I started to fail in my studies and I fall asleep in class; a couple of times Senpai woke me up and I remember dying of shame.-What am I doing?

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It was not an option. Had all wagered on this new life and had to make it work, I only could. I wiped my tears and slept more peacefully. I went back to accepting invitations to his apartment. I cooked for him and he surprised me by preparing simple dishes for me. We were in sync, back to the days where the two could speak with a single glance. His eyes said much that was silent and it was impossible to ignore. The evenings where we kissed in your bed until they drop with sleep were something to remember, to keep forever in my heart. - I can not get carried away and go further. He loved his taking control over my lips. Her blush, her sighs, small bites and the touch of our tongues. She loved him initiating acts of love. It was a tender and passionate full. He began to show the honesty of his affection. He could not change his aggressive part by a loving but was smart display only when situations warranted. Senpai was the smartest in this and many other aspects man. I am subjected to constant danger of being so close to him, lost in his lips. Every kiss way for him all my wounds heal making it impossible. With every stroke I felt loved but also feared the big temptation and lust. My wish was calm with all the drug but never passion for him. Being close was a threat to the sensitivity of my skin and senses it could drive me mad and cause my biological reactions unleashed. - Q-I want you to always ... be together ... ahhh ... Senpai could venture to kiss my neck, stroking my back, my hips, go crazy and get lost in my hair. - Nngh ... y-you love me her breasts stopped. Her lips parted and his eyes focused on mine. - Why do you ask so suddenly? His voice was also choppy, he lost his breath as me. He watched carefully their honey-colored orbs. I wrapped, rambled on them. He watched from below and felt like accusing me when the reality was different. It was guilt that made ​​me see them that way. - Senpai ... I called and when I was unconsciously locked into those four walls with him when he felt the world are only two when he felt again be mine and I He looked like before. His answer was always the bewilderment on his face, that dragged me back from my dream. Nothing could be as it was. - E-this time ... we can be together? Can I stay here? - Oi! What!? ... Chizuru? Without realizing hugged him and began to mourn. Senpai tried to calm down and worried about my reaction was strange my change of mood. I rubbed my back and my sadness disappeared. I said it was stress accumulated but did not believe me, he knew that something was hiding. The constant lies locked me and choked, causing it to look not stop me reflect and realize that soon everything would come out. She wanted to hug him and kiss him for an eternity for another. Thereafter he watched my behavior but I also realized theirs. It was not the only one who kept secrets. From time to time I looked out of the lab to talk on the phone; He seemed to be hidden but also never lied when he said it was important to attend to. The frequency was always different every two weeks, a month, from one day to the other. I was curious as always ending calls looked depressed. It was a sadness he had never seen in him. And it was a day in the afternoon I had a chance to hear that conversation. - Yes, I feel disturb me again. - Who is talking Senpai? I came because Professor Fukushima called me to his office and returned to the laboratory. He was opening the door when I heard it and decided to stay behind the door because I was intrigued enough that he was having problems. He usually kept everything and I just wanted to support him. - I'm calling to see if information had [Morinaga Tetsuhiro]. - Is ... looking for me? My heart stopped for a moment. - Yes, it is the person who had given the description. His voice sounded distressed. My breathing quickened and I felt my legs could not hold me, I began to tremble. - Still nothing ... okay, at least it's a relief to know that they have not entered a patient with your description? . He said goodbye and as soon as hung up called back. I heard at least three more calls to hospitals and the morgue; the latter had been the most disturbing and the most difficult for him. By the time he finished I was sitting on the floor, crying and covering my mouth so as not to hear my sob reached. For a moment I was able to see everything falling apart. - Senpai is looking for Morinaga ... did not want to fall apart but seemed my inevitable fate. From that seed began to sprout concern guilt, insecurity and fear. I was terrified that whatever he had achieved would have been in vain, that my goal had lost all meaning. I concentrated so much in my thoughts that I did not hear the footsteps approaching. Senpai then left several minutes and tripped over my legs. Perhaps out for fresh air or any other reason but ended up falling through the door as. - What a fool sits outside the lab !? He got up as he rubbed his face. He was furious until he turned to me and I was weeping. - You can no longer find this [Morinaga Tetsuhiro] you want. - C-chizuru? What are you doing here? What's wrong? - Please let me ... I want to be alone, I do not want those so kind to me. I hid my face with my bangs and he discovered my face. He knelt beside me and looked worried. Gently wiped my tears and gave me a kiss on the forehead. Hugging me and stroking my back felt his heart close. - Now will you tell me what happens? He did not notice but whispered in my ear. - S-only I fell. The worst excuse ever invented. - Did you fall ... He walked away to analyze me?. - You think I do not realize? While you spend just crying and with a face of anguish. If something bad happens you should tell me. - If you think that why are not the first to speak? -. In fact nothing happens ... His expression revealed his disbelief I was right, I lied. The evening came to my apartment too tormented and terrible ideas that threatened me caused me insomnia. The night became dawn through my window and my eyes would not close. Senpai but wanted to hide it from my ears and lower reflexes betrayed me. I began to fail in my studies and I fall asleep in class; a couple of times and I remember Senpai woke me die of shame. - What am I doing?

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Was not an option. I had everything on this new life and had to make it work, only I could do it. I dried My Tears And I slept calmly.

I accept invitations to your Department. I cooked for him and he surprised me by preparing simple meals for me. We were in line, back to the days where the two Could Talk with a simple look.Her Eyes Said much of what remained silent and it was impossible to ignore. Evenings where we kiss in bed until you drop by sleep were something to remember, to keep Forever in the heart. - I can't go and Go further.

I loved taking control your lips on Mine. Your Blush, their Sighs, Small Friction and Bite our tongues.She loved him by Acts of Love. Was a tender and full of Passion. Began to show The honesty of his Affection. He could not change his aggressive part by a Loving but was smart in it only when the situations as required. Champ was the most intelligent Man in this and in many other aspects.

I subjected to the constant danger of being so close to him,