POV: Morinaga-Morinaga... I...Sempai... This is your last chance, admit that if you feel something for me, I'm being as loud as I can be, but inside I feel destroyed without you.In the morning I went to walk the streets while I thought I was going to do. Something in my heart tells me that sempai loves me, but you can not support it... and so was to reach this conclusion, do you see a "Morinaga" cold, only interested in the University. Then I think in the future as well, where I'm still cold and don't think about it, or I'm declaring my love. Perhaps that is the push that the need to admit their feelings. Because in the background know that you do not want to be without my even if you deny it, pay you sempai... give up and accept it.Wait for me to answer, she had put a smile on my face, but inside it was dying of despair. I want this to work... I need to admit it! I saw sempai breathe deeply and be made up of the State of nerves that was.-Morinaga, I could not accept that... because I'm not gay. -under the head and returned to breathe - if another story out... serious.To hear his response wanted me to cry, but follow me thus showing not take me anywhere, just a sempai to take me penalty. I do not want his sentence, I want your love, and if I cannot have it then... I play the lose.-In all ways is still a waste of my time, because as you said... No... You are... Gay! -finished saying this with a smile that showed confidence.All the strength and confidence that was showing was a mask to cover how I really feel. Sempai I look a bit confused, but he was confused by his thoughts.Did not work, perhaps is that it wouldn't work because I am that has been made in the illusions. I have a desire to leave the apartment where we live together, but do so now will show you that all this has affected me, and the only thing that I get is do worry me. I have promised not to let it worry both for me, that creates that I'm perfectly well, and that I'll slowly recovering.Sempai interrupted the silence that had among us, while we looked at us waiting for one of them to say something.-Then... do you nothing happens with me? Only you have decided... uhm... - it seemed that sempai was not able to say that "I've decided to forget it"-That's all sempai, and I think I decided well don't you think?... I need to forget. -To say this look at it for a moment and then I turn to follow with the new experiment that had begun.-If you had... always thought that you should forget about those silly feelings. -He said the neutral voice.What the hell are you saying? Stupid feelings! How do I came to fall in love with someone as well?-Can you have not noticed... - has followed sempai speaking - but... women at this University you much appreciate, and I am sure that if...-Now shut up! -Shout you, has fulfilled me the patience - I understand your hatred towards homosexuals, but at least respect the life that I have decided to take. -Do not turn to look at him - I like men... and you don't. Me enamore de ti!... and you do not you fell in love with me. And you know that I have given account... don't you deserve my affection!I do not realize in that moment sempai had thrown to where me, note it when his fist had collided with one of my cheeks. CAI on the table where I had my experiment, and unfortunately this fell to the ground. "There is no more than do" - thought to see the experienced already in the soil.See sempai, and this looked fatigued and furious. With closed fists and panting heavily.- How dare you to tell me that after I always care for you! -Address a little more his stance and I try to calm down, but did. -YOU THINK THAT I DESERVE THESE THINGS TELL ME!... MAYBE BE MY FRIEND NO TE INTEREST BECAUSE WHAT YOU IS NOT WANTED... BUT A FRIENDSHIP IS WORTH MUCH... AND I APPRECIATE OUR!-Then... sempai, by our friendship... respect me me and my sexual preference - talk with a calm tone of voice, to see if the also lowered voice. -That's what friends do... right?-He was just trying to advise you... do not have to say why I don't deserve your affection. -looked a little depressed. I saw him move quickly from me towards the door of the laboratory. I didn't ask where I was going, and she left without saying one word more.One of the teachers of the University that passed through there seems that I had heard the screams, because after that sempai came out, she looked out to the laboratory.-Do everything fine here? -I ask the concerned teacher-If... sorry for the noise we have just cause.She look a little worried but happy with my apology. He smiled and closed the door of the laboratory.Would be possible remedy "friendship" between us? With this discussion I find that sempai is increasingly farther away... how to finish everything in a stupid argument? If I had only said that he loves me and that do not want you forget me of it. I... I... I love him for the rest of my life, with its strengths and weaknesses. It never left him and would always be for the at all times.Hours passed and it seemed that sempai will not come back. Anyway I have some classes to take, so I left the laboratory to take my classes. In the living room I could concentrate on what the teacher said. I heard him speak but could not understand, my mind was next to my sempai... difficult it will be to learn to live without you and under the same roof! Because I can't touch him or kiss him, I have to contain all those impulses, and the truth... not is or where to start to forget it.On leaving University, I went straight to the "Gay Bar Adamsite". There would be my good friend Hiroto, who in fact have not seen it in two days. Arriving at the bar, Hiroto was a little busy, I showed a seat at the bar so take it and served me a little wiski what was waiting for him that the end with customers.When Hiroto had finished, and had no more to do...-Angel-kun! - Hiroto came to where my happy. -What has happened to these two days you have not seen? -sat beside me with a drink of wiski for-how's everything with your sempai?As soon as Hiroto mention sempai enters a vast depression, and such seems to me showed in his face, because without a middle word more Hiroto rose from his seat was and busco wiski bottle and put it beside me.-This will be a long night Angel-kun... what happened? For what that face? -told me while giving me a Pat in the back.I told him everything that had happened, since yesterday in the laboratory when sempai was so lustful until today a few hours ago that he punched me in the face. Hiroto listened to me carefully and reacted according to what they told him, and while still telling the wiski of bottle it was disappearing.-Can not believe it Angel-kun! -Hiroto was amazed - do really think forget it?-It is that I have to forget it... I can not keep as well. We have sex, then he denies it all and check me on face me I take. And that makes me feel fatal, because while I think we've improved... maybe I'm steps to get his love, the reminds me how much that hates homosexuals, and that apparently the relationship between two men can not be...-Can not be? He has... but enjoy it... - Hiroto failed to understand the way of thinking of sempai. -The truth... do not know how you could support you it for almost 6 years Angel-kun? That single man you has brought problems, suffering, and the few moments that gives you happiness, it is responsible for destroying them.-Don't know how I will be able to continue living with the... - I felt concerned by how I will face in the apartment will be upset with me? Do disappointed?-Ehhhh... don't you think moving from the apartment? -Hiroto rose from his seat in a skip, this if you did not expect it - why not going to move? It is the right thing!-I don't that you worry me, thinking that I'm wrong, or I'm going to go at the University...Hiroto looked at me with a face that does not believe me not a word of what I am saying. And in part if it is true... that's just an excuse for staying beside sempai... still don't want to lose hope, love it... is not easy...-Angel-kun... I do not understand. Do you want to forget or not? Because if you want to forget the most logical thing is that you move...I could not answer to what I said, Hiroto I look for a moment and then hug me. He understood me yet, and I wasn't going to judge, that is what more than I like Hiroto, no matter my decisions... If they are good or bad, he is always there to support me, and if I see fall there will be to help raise me.-I can not go Hiroto, not only because I don't want to worry about... yet I become to the idea of living without it.-Angel-kun... calm down, you know that it is better forget it, and if you've decided what you need to take the first steps, but... If you're still not ready, take it easy... but I don't think that living with him is the best idea.-I know... - take the wiski bottle and remove Hiroto-Oi! What?... drink the full wiski In any way! -Hiroto look at the clock on his cell phone - look at the time! Go into your House because they are around 11:00 pm... Do not to his sempai worry so much-he smiled at Me and throw me a yaw-What insinuate Hiroto? - me blush-Your own admitiste you can not live even without the... What are you doing here then? -I approached me and I whisper in your ear - you know you die to see it!-Hiroto-kun! -I felt that full face I got red and Hiroto is River to laughter.
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