Nuevamente nos encontrábamos en su

Nuevamente nos encontrábamos en su departamento, besándonos, esta vez el encuentro lo inicié yo. Quería devorarlo y sentirlo mío, sentir que no estaba perdiéndolo. Para este punto lo había descubierto llamando en otras dos ocasiones diferentes. Eso me dolía, me hacía cuestionarme cosas que quería olvidar, que solo quería convertirlas en mías y pensar que nunca fueron de otra forma. Deseaba que mis mentiras se convirtieran en nuestra realidad.

- Senpai… ammngh s-senpai… senpai… Otra vez un acto involuntario.

- E-espera Chizuru… y-yo…

Me coloqué sobre él y no le di tregua. Mis besos avanzaron con libertad hasta los puntos en donde él suplicaba en silencio por atención. Su voz me hipnotizaba. Me gustaba como nuestras respiraciones chocaban y se fusionaban. Cada beso me perdía, me desviaba del camino dejándome peligrosamente al borde. Hasta que caí. Mi cuerpo por fin reaccionaba de la manera equivocada y no podía detenerme, no quería hacerlo.

- E-espera… Chizuru, a-algo no esté bien…

Besaba su cuello y lo recargaba contra el respaldo. Como siempre quedaba acorralado.

- Siento a-algo…

Sí, él sentía algo contra su pierna, era demasiado familiar como para ignorarlo. Sin saber cómo contestar a su respuesta, de una manera sutil, comenzó a acariciar mis piernas y se atrevió a subir por mi falda. Observé como su sonrojo se transformó en sorpresa. Sus ojos confirmaban el extraño bulto que podía palpar. Se sobresaltó, yo lo abracé y susurré dulcemente en su oído.

- Te quiero.

- ¡Muévete eso me hace cosquillas idiota!

Me empujó y caí. Abrió sus ojos impactado, todo indicaba que había sido un acto reflejo y ahora trataba de entender lo que sucedía. Esta conversación se había repetido miles de veces y su cuerpo y subconsciente lo recordaban. Yo no podía ponerme de pie. No quería que sus ojos examinaran mi cuerpo y no tenía la voluntad para enfrentarlo. Si estaba batalla se daba era seguro que no saldría victorioso, de mí solo quedarían pedazos destrozados y posiblemente irreparables.

- ¿Puedes explicarme lo que…

- S-senpai. Lo interrumpí sin percatarme de como lo había llamado y él se calló.

Su ceño empezó a fruncirse y poco a poco estaba descubriendo todo. Yo solo podía encogerme rogando porque no se diera cuenta pero era demasiado tarde. Su mirada me gritaba con ira que ahora lo sabía todo y no habría escapatoria.

- ¿M-morinaga… Tetsuhiro? Entrecerraba sus ojos, quizá mantenía duda en su corazón y mientras preguntaba maquinaba un sinfín de posibles explicaciones. Pero todo sería en vano.

- Yo…

- ¿Eres tú? No había enojo en su voz, hasta podría jurar que oía nostalgia.

Mi voz me abandonó en este momento tan importante pero lamentablemente las lágrimas no lo hicieron. Tenía tanto miedo pero asentí con la cabeza, luego de eso solo la agaché y me di cuenta que mis manos temblaban ligeramente. Todo se quedó en silencio. En esas cuatro paredes, como cuando decidí partir, el silencio me encerró. Cerré mis ojos, apreté mis manos y esperé por lo peor.

- T-tú regresaste… En su voz escuchaba alivio, sé que así era, pero no fue por mucho. - ¿¡Cómo te atreviste a regresar de esa manera solo para engañarme!? Ahora si estaba furioso. - ¿¡Qué virus fue el que entró en tu cabeza y te dijo que esto estaba bien!?

Yo estaba temblando y sin el valor para verlo.

- ¡MÍRAME Y DIME PORQUÉ LO HICISTE!

Me jaló del cabello para levantarme y que le diera una explicación. Solo pude balbucear algunas palabras pero ninguna frase completa.

- Y-yo solo… tú dijiste que había algo y yo pensé… cambié porque tú lo hiciste y creí que nosotros… tal vez que de esta forma podíamos empezar de nuevo y…

- ¿Empezar? ¿¡Crees que con mentiras puedes formar algo sólido!?... eres un maldito mentiroso, una vil rata.

- Y-yo no quería… s-solo… Mi llanto me estaba dificultando el habla.

- ¡Lo único que siempre has querido es imponer tus estúpidos sentimientos sobre mí!

- ¿E-estúpidos?

- No puedo creer que me hayas estado viendo la cara de idiota por más de seis meses y lo peor… Su voz se quebró, no se daba cuenta pero él también empezó a llorar. - … es que y-yo… la quería demasiado. Esa fue una clara referencia hacia Chizuru.

- Senpai…

- ¿¡POR QUÉ NO TE LARGAS DE AQUÍ!? Volvió a lanzarme lejos. - No quiero tener que ver tu cara otra vez. Ya tuve demasiado de esto.

Pude ver lo lastimado que estaba; sus labios temblaban pero su ceño se fruncía. Era un tornado de sentimientos, algo demasiado peligroso, para él y para mí.

- ¿P-por qué no nos calmamos y luego…

- ¿¡Qué!? ¿Quieres que te sirva el té y nos sentemos a platicar como si nada hubiera pasado?... hace años fui muy claro contigo cuando me largué del departamento y te dije que no habría más entre nosotros.

- P-pero Senpai, hace un momento… nosotros… nos estábamos besando.

- ¡Ni siquiera lo menciones! Limpió su boca y luego escupió a un lado. - Todo fue por tus malditos engaños. No puedo creer que después de tantos años sigas usando los mismos métodos enfermizos.

Me rompía el corazón la manera en la que hablaba, me lastimaba, dolía demasiado. Quería protestar, quería defenderme pero desde hace semanas me había venido abajo. Solo aceptaba todo lo que me decía pues en parte yo también quería gritarme todas esas cosas. Era un cobarde que se había ocultado bajo una falda al no encontrar otra salida.

- ¡Te convertiste en un fenómeno por una estupidez!... enserio ¿qué es lo que pasaba por tu cabeza cuando lo hiciste?

- A-antes de irte lo dijiste… que tal vez habría funcionado... si yo no hubiera sido un hombre. Mi declaración era como un murmullo, como si no deseara ser escuchado. - Yo te amaba, te sigo amando, y por eso fue que quería intentar todo… quería estar a tu lado aunque dejara de ser la misma persona. Si eso te hacía feliz…

- ¡Cállate! Yo no te dije que hicieras esto, nunca te dije que cambiaras y menos que regresaras como un fenómeno. Se quedó pensando un momento pero rectificó sus palabras. - En ese entonces me despedí, ¿No podías solo aceptarlo e irte en paz? ¿Por qué siempre tienes que descontrolar mi mundo?... estoy seguro que todo esto es una venganza tuya en mi contra. Me hiciste caer otra vez y ahora mucho más bajo. Tapaba su boca pero continuó hablando. - Chizuru era especial, me sentí raro otra vez… pero todo fue una mentira.

- ¿Senpai?

Tenía toda la razón en enojarse pero sus palabras me herían.

- ¡No te me acerques! ¡Lárgate! Me dio un golpe muy fuerte y me invadió el recuerdo de la primera vez en que lo tomé a la fuerza. Nuevamente arruinaba todo. - Me provoca nauseas tener que ver tu cara, vete de una vez.

- C-claro. Siento todas las molestias que causé. Me levanté a tomar mi abrigó y Senpai me seguía con la mirada, esperando para ya no tener que verme más. Dándole la espalda y a punto de salir di mi última despedida.

- ¿S-senpai? Lo llamé para captar su atención. Mi mano estaba sobre el marco de la puerta, enterraba mis uñas con desesperación y lo arañaba con profunda tristeza. - Espero que… algún día puedas perdonar todas mis tonterías. No fue mi intención arruinar tu vida, lo siento. Volteé a verlo y le dediqué mi última sonrisa en demasiado tiempo. Tenía la ilusión de que me recordara de esa manera.

- De esta forma quiero que recuerdes todos los buenos momentos y borres todas las lágrimas y tragos amargos que te hice pasar.

Kết quả (Anh) 1:

Again we were in his apartment, kissing us, this time the encounter I started it. I wanted to devour it and feel it my own, feeling that it was not losing it. To this point he had discovered it by calling in two other different occasions. That hurt me, made me question things that I wanted to forget, that just wanted to turn them into mine and think that they were never otherwise. I wished that my lies become our reality.-Senpai... ammngh s-senpai... senpai... Again an involuntary act.-E-espera Chizuru... and - I...I placed me on it and no di le truce. My kisses advanced with freedom to the point where he begged silently for attention. Their voices hypnotize me. I liked how our breaths clashed and are merged. Every Kiss I was lost, I strayed from the road leaving me dangerously on the edge. Until I fell. My body finally reacted in the wrong way and could not stop myself, didn't want to do it.-E-espera... Chizuru to - something is not well...He kissed her neck and reloading it against the seat back. As always it was cornered.-Feel - something...Yes, he felt something against his leg, was too familiar to ignore it. Not knowing how to reply to your response, in a subtle way, began to caress my legs and dared to go up my skirt. I watched as his blush turned into surprise. His eyes confirmed the odd lump that could feel. He was startled, I hugged him and susurré sweetly in your ear.-I love you.-Move that makes me an idiot Tickle!Pushed me and I fell down. He opened his eyes shocked, all indicated that it was a reflex and now trying to understand what was happening. This conversation had repeated thousands of times and his body and subconscious they remembered it. I could not put my foot. I didn't want her eyes to examine my body and did not have the will to face it. If it was battle was was sure that it would not emerge victorious, I only would be wrecked and possibly irreparable pieces.-Do you can explain to me what...?S-senpai. Interrupted him without noticing me in as I had called him and he went silent.His brow began to pucker is and was slowly discovering everything. I only could shrink me begging because not realized, but it was too late. Her look screamed me with anger now knew everything and there would be no escape.-M-morinaga...? Tetsuhiro? You entrecerraba your eyes, perhaps remained doubt in his heart, and while I was asking was a host of possible explanations. But everything would be in vain.-Yo...-Are you? There was no anger in his voice, even could swear he heard nostalgia.My voice left me at this very important moment but unfortunately the tears did not. I was so scared but I nodded, then from that I got just down it and me di account that my hands were shaking slightly. Everything fell silent. In those four walls, as when I decided to leave, I locked the silence. I closed my eyes and squeezed my hands and waited for the worst.-T-you came... Relief I heard in his voice, I know that so it was, but it was not by much. -You how dares to return that way just to deceive me! Now if it was furious. -What virus was that came into your head and told you that this was OK!I was shaking and worthless to see it.-LOOK AT ME AND TELL ME WHY WHAT YOU DID!I pulled the hair to get up and to give you an explanation. I could only mumble some words but no complete phrase.-And-I just... you said that there was something and I thought... I changed because you did and believed that we... maybe that in this way we could start over and...-Can start? You think that with lies you can form something solid! ... you're a damn liar, a vile rat.-And-I didn't want to... s-just... My tears was hindering me speech.-The only thing you've always wanted is to impose your stupid feelings about me!-Do e-stupid?-I can't believe that I've been watching the face of idiot for more than six months and the worst... His voice broke, did not mind but it also began to cry. -... is that-I... wanted her too. That was a clear reference to Chizuru.-Senpai...-YOU NOT TEA LONG HERE! He returned to throw me away. -I don't have to see your face again. I had too much of this.I could see the hurt that was; his lips trembled, but his scowl seemed. It was a tornado of emotions, rather too dangerous, for him and for me.- ¿P-por qué no nos calmamos y luego…- ¿¡Qué!? ¿Quieres que te sirva el té y nos sentemos a platicar como si nada hubiera pasado?... hace años fui muy claro contigo cuando me largué del departamento y te dije que no habría más entre nosotros.- P-pero Senpai, hace un momento… nosotros… nos estábamos besando.- ¡Ni siquiera lo menciones! Limpió su boca y luego escupió a un lado. - Todo fue por tus malditos engaños. No puedo creer que después de tantos años sigas usando los mismos métodos enfermizos.Me rompía el corazón la manera en la que hablaba, me lastimaba, dolía demasiado. Quería protestar, quería defenderme pero desde hace semanas me había venido abajo. Solo aceptaba todo lo que me decía pues en parte yo también quería gritarme todas esas cosas. Era un cobarde que se había ocultado bajo una falda al no encontrar otra salida.- ¡Te convertiste en un fenómeno por una estupidez!... enserio ¿qué es lo que pasaba por tu cabeza cuando lo hiciste?- A-antes de irte lo dijiste… que tal vez habría funcionado... si yo no hubiera sido un hombre. Mi declaración era como un murmullo, como si no deseara ser escuchado. - Yo te amaba, te sigo amando, y por eso fue que quería intentar todo… quería estar a tu lado aunque dejara de ser la misma persona. Si eso te hacía feliz…- ¡Cállate! Yo no te dije que hicieras esto, nunca te dije que cambiaras y menos que regresaras como un fenómeno. Se quedó pensando un momento pero rectificó sus palabras. - En ese entonces me despedí, ¿No podías solo aceptarlo e irte en paz? ¿Por qué siempre tienes que descontrolar mi mundo?... estoy seguro que todo esto es una venganza tuya en mi contra. Me hiciste caer otra vez y ahora mucho más bajo. Tapaba su boca pero continuó hablando. - Chizuru era especial, me sentí raro otra vez… pero todo fue una mentira.- ¿Senpai?Tenía toda la razón en enojarse pero sus palabras me herían.- ¡No te me acerques! ¡Lárgate! Me dio un golpe muy fuerte y me invadió el recuerdo de la primera vez en que lo tomé a la fuerza. Nuevamente arruinaba todo. - Me provoca nauseas tener que ver tu cara, vete de una vez.- C-claro. Siento todas las molestias que causé. Me levanté a tomar mi abrigó y Senpai me seguía con la mirada, esperando para ya no tener que verme más. Dándole la espalda y a punto de salir di mi última despedida.- ¿S-senpai? Lo llamé para captar su atención. Mi mano estaba sobre el marco de la puerta, enterraba mis uñas con desesperación y lo arañaba con profunda tristeza. - Espero que… algún día puedas perdonar todas mis tonterías. No fue mi intención arruinar tu vida, lo siento. Volteé a verlo y le dediqué mi última sonrisa en demasiado tiempo. Tenía la ilusión de que me recordara de esa manera.- De esta forma quiero que recuerdes todos los buenos momentos y borres todas las lágrimas y tragos amargos que te hice pasar.

Kết quả (Anh) 2:

Again we were in her apartment, kissing, this time the meeting started it myself. And devour me feel wanted, feel that I was not losing it. To this point I had discovered calling in two different occasions. That hurt me, made ​​me question things he wanted to forget, I just wanted to make them think that mine and never were otherwise. He wanted my lies to become our reality. - Senpai ... ammngh s-senpai senpai ... Again ... an involuntary act. - E-expected Chizuru ... II ... I put on him and did not give truce. My kisses moved freely to points where he silently begged for attention. His voice hypnotized me. I liked how our breaths collided and merged. Every kiss I lost, I deviated from the path leaving perilously. Until I fell. My body finally reacted in the wrong way and could not stop, do not want to. - W-wait ... Chizuru, a-something is not right ... He kissed his neck and leaned against the back. As always he was cornered. - I feel a-something ... Yes, he felt something against his leg, was too familiar to ignore. Not knowing how to answer his reply, in a subtle way, he began to caress my legs and dared to climb up my skirt. She watched as her blush became surprise. His eyes confirmed the strange lump was palpable. She jumped, I hugged him and whispered softly in his ear. - I love you. - Move it makes me tickle idiot! He pushed me and I fell. He opened his eyes shocked, everything that had been reflexively and was now trying to understand what was happening. This conversation had been repeated thousands of times and his body and subconscious remembered. I could not stand up. He did not want his eyes examine my body and was unwilling to face. If battle was given was not sure he would be victorious, they would be shattered me alone and possibly irreparable pieces. - Can you tell me what ... - S-senpai. I interrupted without realizing how he had called and he stopped. His brow began to pucker and slowly was discovering everything. I could only shrug praying that you would not notice but it was too late. His gaze angrily shouted at me that what I now knew everything and could escape. - M-Tetsuhiro Morinaga ...? He narrowed his eyes, perhaps kept doubt in his heart and wondered while plotting endless explanations. But everything would be in vain. - I ... - Are you? There was no anger in his voice, I could swear I heard until nostalgia. My voice left me in this important moment tears but unfortunately did not. I was so scared but nodded, then it only reached down and I realized that my hands were shaking slightly. Everything was silent. In those four walls, and when I decided to leave, he locked me in silence. I closed my eyes, I pressed my hands and waited for the worst. - T-you came back ... heard relief in his voice, I know it was, but it was not by much. - How you dare you come back that way just to fool !? Now I was furious. - What was the virus that came into your head and told you this was fine !? I was shaking and without the courage to see it. - Look at me and tell me why you did it! hair pulled me to get up and give him an explanation. I could only mumble a few words but no complete sentence. - Y-I just ... you said you had something and I thought ... I changed it because you did and thought we ... perhaps in this way we could start over and ... - Start ? ?! Think you with lies you can make something solid ... you're a fucking liar, a vile rat!?. - Y-I did not want ... s-alone ... My crying was hampering me speaking. - The only thing you have always wanted to impose your stupid feelings about me! - E-stupid? - I can not believe I've been seeing the face of an idiot for more than six months and the worst ... Her voice broke, but did not realize he also began to cry. - ... It is that II ... wanted too. That was a clear reference to Chizuru. - Senpai ... - WHY DO NOT LONG HERE !? He returned to throw away. - I do not want to have to see your face again. I've had too much of it. I could see how hurt he was; his lips trembled but her brow furrowed. It was a tornado of feelings, too dangerous for him and for me. - W-why not calmed down and then ... - What !? Want to serve you tea and sit down and talk as if nothing had happened ... years ago I was very clear with the department when I went off and I told you that there would be more between us?. - B-but Senpai, it does a time ... we ... we were kissing. - Do not even mention it! He wiped his mouth and then spit it aside. - All for your deception was cursed. I can not believe that after all these years you keep using the same methods sickly. It broke my heart the way he spoke, it hurt, it hurt too much. He wanted to protest, wanted to defend myself but for weeks I had come down. Just I accept everything he said because I wanted also partly yelling all this stuff. He was a coward who had hidden under a skirt to find no other way out. - You became a phenomenon seriously stupid ... which is what was going through your head when you did!? - A-before you go you say ... maybe it would have worked ... if I had not been a man. My statement was like a whisper, as if he wished to be heard. - I loved you, I still love you, and why was I wanted to try everything ... I wanted to be by your side even stop being the same person. If that made ​​you happy ... - Shut up! I did not tell you to do this, you never said you changed and unless you came back as a phenomenon. He thought for a moment but corrected his words. - At that time I said goodbye, Could not you just accept it and go in peace? Why do you always have to get out of control my world? ... I'm sure this is all yours revenge against me. You made ​​me fall again and now much lower. But he hid his mouth continued. - Chizuru was special, I felt weird again ... but it was all a lie. - Senpai? He had every reason to be angry but his words hurt me. - Do not come near me! Get out! He gave me a hard blow and I was overcome memories of the first time he took it by force. Again he ruined everything. - It causes nausea I have to see your face, go for once. - C-clear. I feel all the trouble I caused. I got up to take my coat and Senpai followed me with his eyes, hoping not to have to see me again. His back and point out gave my last farewell. - S-senpai? I called him to get his attention. My hand was on the door frame, burying my nails in despair and deep sadness scratched. - ... I hope someday you can forgive all my nonsense. I did not mean to ruin your life, sorry. I turned to him and spent my last smile on too long. I had the illusion that reminded me that way. - Thus want you to remember all the good times and blot out all the tears and bitter sips I put you through.

Kết quả (Anh) 3:

Again we were in his Apartment, kissing, this time the Encounter started me. I wanted to devour him and feel me, feel that I was losing. To this point I had discovered a calling on two different occasions. I had a question, I did things I wanted to Forget, just make them Mine and never think that were otherwise.He wanted My Lies become our reality.

s senpai... Ammngh senpai... Senpai... Again an Involuntary Act.

- e - Chizuru... I-i...

I stood over him and gave no truce. My Kisses were Freedom to the point where he Prayed in Silence for attention. Her Voice was Hypnotized. I liked our breaths collided and coalesced.Every Kiss I Lost, I Deviated Path leaving dangerously close to the Edge. Until he fell. My Body reacted to the wrong way and I couldn't stop myself, I didn't do it. - Wait, Chizuru, something's not right...

Kissing his neck and supported against the back. As always it was CORNERED.
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I feel something... Something he felt against his leg,He was too familiar to ignore. Not knowing how to answer his answer, in a subtle way, began to caress my legs and dared to climb up my skirt. I watched the Blush turned in surprise. His eyes confirmed the unusual Lump was palpable. Startled, I hugged him and whispered softly in her ear.
-

I Love You. - Move that Tickles!

pushed me and I Fell. Opened his eyes shocked, All stated that he had been a reflex and now trying to understand what was happening. This conversation was repeated thousands of times and his body and subconscious remembered him. I couldn't stand. I didn't want to examine your eyes and My Body didn't have the will to face it.If Battle was sure was not Victorious, only left me Shattered bits and possibly irreparable.

- Can you explain to me what...

- S Senpai. I interrupted you without notice as I had called him and he fell.

his Brow began to pucker and was slowly discovering everything. I could only just Shrink begging because did not realize it, but it was too late.