I had no idea that thing was in that classroom, how did I fit here, for some strange reason nobody seemed to care about my origin, nor my name. Surely had to do with that which has the strange power to change reality or moving through time at will, come to think that after spending one time in the past, could I perhaps back to where I belong, however was almost certain that my punishment or rather things that I should improve in the life of Morinaga to get to know it more than simple things I did to him should be when he was child. I am sure that Masaki has something to do with what I will do here. While I was pondering this looked at my desk with some papers about him, among them the first up to above was the list of assistance with the following title:List of high school chemistry first commodity assistanceThank goodness I'm not the teacher of other matter, since not is if it could give a class that wasn't chemical. I felt somewhat nervous in front of a group of young boys that are surely not easy to control, had never before given any class, they were restless by my silence, I have no fucking idea where to begin, so I first decided to spend assistance. To pronouncing the names sought the faces, it would soon reach the name of Morinaga Tetsuhiro, I didn't let it get since I was checking things that were on your desktop with me, so many guys watching me, that once you say its name could know where it was.I gave your name and all the room silenced for a few moments, then listen to laugh along with the classic.-Present-By Morinaga, look at the saddest eyes I ever saw in it, almost staring, his face somewhat pale and listless, among the whispers I heard:-The pervert would not have why to attend this school--Quiet please - Express with some anger.I suppose that everyone heard the rumors about Masaki, for that reason the poor Morinaga is sitting without nobody point you look. Once completed the assistance proceeded to ask about the latest they saw with the previous teacher, thanks to that with my own desk text book I could see the simple things that looked, so I didn't have any problem to the class. All retired at the end of less Morinaga, who was crestfallen.-Morinaga can speak--If Sensei occurring - his weak voice said.-I can see that you are very depressed occurring with you--By apparently has not heard rumors, I will know --Whatever it is that you did I don't think it was bad enough to be so sad, I know, is what really happened --Already do not want me in their class truth?--Do not say nonsense, I'd like to hear your problems, I know what really happened with you. That such Masaki betrayed your feelings...…POV MORINAGAMasaki and I we were in my room, desire invading my body, I wanted to own it, I wanted to be one with him. He was my kisses as it always used to do, I also wanted, played it little by little on your clothes while my fingers glided over the buttons of his shirt, then unbuckle his pants and hear my bedroom door open. It was my brother, he had discovered our relationship, doom in his words was hard, I felt my pulse accelerated full of nerves, also anger invaded my mind I did nothing wrong it was a bad thing loving someone else and show him your affection?I argued, discussing their hurtful words, hurting me, but I felt protected by the love, one who is hiding behind me while I was being judged. I would bear anything to protect it, but then the reality as knew it crumbled suddenly. My brother is going after our discussion, the pardon is because I didn't love, it was with me because I was tender and loving, all sweet who was living with me, but he was in love with my brother. Somehow I knew it, I always knew it, Masaki looked to my brother as I watched him. I felt some jealousy, however I thought that it was with me, so I had no doubt why his feelings. Now knew everything, it was too clear, I have never been loved by anyone, I was always second. I don't understand, I don't know how could promise you not to tell that he loved my brother.At home things were quite unpleasant, these people made me feel like a total stranger, being at home was like living next to strangers, looked at me with disgust, it could not sit at the table as the form in which I saw was total dissatisfaction.Everyone knew it, people to my around had learned that I was something that everyone considered an infectious disease, being gay was seen as the most repulsive thing, especially when they thought that I had seduced a boy poor spreading my evil and then mocking me his feelings. How wrong they were, he had broken my heart, I blight, but I could not hate him, she loved him too, did not want him no harm, inside me it was my bleeding heart scrap into small pieces.My head not just understand when my parents found out unfortunately, rumors reached them while they were at work, they knew that I felt rather sick, that is why I had missed school that day. My brother despite his condemnation had told them nothing, perhaps somehow understood what I was expecting when they knew it, having something of worth for my situation, but was something nonsense, Masaki or anyone in your family had told a different story. I saw them get that day directly to my room, with tears in his eyes full of anger and contempt, with the most horrible words that I never thought people where the most trusted, were no more my family, my father asked me to never again you speak you listen. Now they were simply people who shame would take care of me financially, since he had no other place to go.Era un completo fracaso como hijo para ellos, para vivir ahí debía cumplir con mis obligaciones una de las cuales era asistir a la escuela, así que me forzaron a ir al siguiente día. Mi alma, mi cuerpo, todo mi ser estaba partido por la mitad, ya no sentía que fuera yo, la sensación de incomodidad y pesadumbre, como de haber perdido algo importante, quizá mi propio corazón que había dejado de existir, ya que no podía ser amado por nadie, ni por el amor más puro de una madre, yo era solo una vergüenza, un estorbo, seguramente deseaban que jamás hubiese nacido, para no importunar sus vidas. Desafortunadamente ya existía, ahora que sería de mí, no sé qué cosa me impulsa a estar en este podrido y asqueroso mundo, porque razón existo, tan solo para padecer este espantoso dolor y vacío.Al llegar a la escuela ese día, me percate que los rumores se habían esparcido no sólo entre mi familia, sino ahora todos los que yo conocía despreciaban mi presencia, era infeccioso para todo el mundo, no podía mirar a nadie a los ojos pues no me dirigían la mirada. Al final de una de las clases una cálida mirada llena de ternura me observaba, yo no me había percatado de ello hasta que se aproximó hacia mí y me dijo:-Yo sé lo que realmente ocurrió contigo. Ese tal Masaki traicionó tus sentimientos-Sus palabras me hicieron regresar a la realidad, las lágrimas llegaban a mis ojos sin poder contenerlas.- But he says... I seduje it and then throw it...-My tears came out that I could avoid it, could not pronounce any word more, painful tingling ran all over my body, filling it with a sense of despair, vacuum, anger, fear, grief and suffering is seized of all my being, then that one old man hugged me calming everything. My crying out as he had not been able to get since my family I removed from their hearts.-No llores Morinaga, are not alone, your you're very important more than such a liar, you don't need them, you don't need anyone. Damn you must tell the truth to everyone --Don't say that, don't talk so it... I knew what he felt for my brother... still wished to be by his side... was my fault... deserve it -The words atoraban in my throat, they wanted to go, honey eyes me confortaban but drew my emotions in a way strange, as if you already knew it, seemed to know me.-All were telling me the truth, I will not judge you, in fact I have a brother...--The truth? About what? I have nothing to say--Calm down a bit, dry those tears that do not seem to you, do you have more classes?--Sensei this wasn't the last-Tatsumi, please - call me-Imagine you have no desire to go home still isn't it? So you say if accompanied me to eat something, I invite--No I'm hungry, I just want to be alone --That is typical of you, run away from everything and everyone, you should face problems and find a solution--I don't disrespect you but you do not know me, as it is telling me those so nasty things if you have no idea what I'm going --Go Morinaga, nothing to lose if I want to join to eat, also sure you don't want to do anything else -His words seemed to orders in my head, somehow he had something strange, felt that I should ignore him, I do not understand but I will go, after all listen to it makes me feel so calm. So I simply nodded, went to the toilet so I clean up the face and curiously I could note that she looked in the mirror repeatedly strangely.
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