Por la noche, mientras dormía, tuve

Por la noche, mientras dormía, tuve un sueño de mi niñez. Aquellos bellos momentos que pasé con mi mamá, cortos pero maravillosos momentos. También sobre lo ilusionado que estaba por conocer a mis hermanos mayores, cosa que jamás se cumplió, para el padre de ellos yo era un bastardo. Poco a poco mi sueño se fue oscureciendo convirtiéndose en una pesadilla. La vida con papá no era la mejor; trabajaba hasta tarde y bebía mucho, pero nunca me hizo falta nada o por lo menos eso creí. Amor fue lo que faltó. Lo descubrí cuando cursaba secundaria, aquella primera vez que me enamoré, lamentablemente de una persona de mí mismo sexo. La forma en que tomó mi confesión fue la peor, luego de eso sufrí todo tipo de abuso hasta que me gradué e ingresé a una preparatoria donde nadie me conocía. Cambié mi persona por completo para evitar las burlas y poder tener una relación con alguien a quien amara y me correspondiera. La realidad es que nunca funcionaron dichas relaciones pues cuando se enteraban de la verdad me humillaban. No me dejaron otra salida más que transferirme una y otra y otra vez de escuela. Lo hice tantas veces como fue necesario. La transformación que hice disgustó en gran medida a mi papá, nunca puso una mano sobre de mí; hasta ese momento. Aquel día me corrió de casa. Después de eso dejé la escuela, le saqué provecho a la belleza que mis parejas creyeron descubrir en mí, antes de enterarse de la verdad claro está, y comencé a trabajar como modelo. Fue mi única manera de salir adelante y sobrevivir.

- ¿Por qué todas mis memorias regresan en este momento?

Apenas desperté, doblé el futon y me cambié para salir. Ayer decidí que debía darles privacidad y dejarlos un tiempo a solas. Presentía que tenían que hablar, no se sentirían cómodos con mi presencia, así que les haría un favor.

- No tuve oportunidad de decirle adiós, podría aprovechar para visitarla.

Les escribí una nota avisando que por trabajo, esa sería mi excusa, saldría a algún lugar por tres días. Tomé mi bolso y partí. Ellos no me extrañarían y arreglarían el pesado ambiente que se sentían a su alrededor.

POV MORINAGA

- No sólo deseo tu cuerpo, también deseo tu corazón -

Oí una voz susurrar; era la mía. Recordaba una vez más como Senpai me había salvado de aquel incendió, de cómo el fuego consumía todo a su paso y sentí el abandono y luego el deseado rescate. Siempre era quien me salvaba, era mi superhéroe, me sentía en deuda con él y no sabía cómo agradecerle. No encontraba otras maneras de demostrarle cuanto lo amo; se agotaban mis ideas.

- ¿Qué es esta sensación tan cálida? Es agradable.

Lentamente abrí mis ojos para encontrarme con un nuevo día. Parpadeé varias veces pues me encontraba algo adormilado y me moví para despertar. Algo obstruía mis movimientos.

- ¿Qué es esto? ¿Una mano? No ¿Son dos? Alguien está… ¿Abrazándome? ¿Quién?

- Mo…-rinaga Murmuró muy cerca de mi oído.

- ¿¡EHHHHHHHH!? ¿Senpai?

Con cuidado me escabullí para voltear a verlo. Seguía dormido y sus brazos quedaron descansando del lado de mi cama. Hizo un gesto de desagrado y al sentir la falta de calor se acurrucó envolviendo su cuerpo en la sabana.

- ¿Qué es lo que hace en mi habitación? ¿Por qué me estaba abrazando? Y además… ¿eh?

Lo miré detenidamente y noté que en sus ojos había lágrimas. Su expresión denotaba tristeza aunque su respirar era lento y pausado.

- ¿Estuvo llorando toda la noche? ¿Pero por qué?

El que voluntariamente haya venido a mi habitación y estuviera abrazándome me parecía de lo más tierno, pero ver que estuvo llorando hasta dormirse me partía el corazón. Era una persona tan sentimental e ignoraba eso, para mí era alguien bastante transparente y honesto aún en sus mentiras. No sabía cómo proceder. Si lo despertaba probablemente tendría que enfrentarlo y preguntarle algo que es muy importante para mí; su respuesta podía hacerme la persona más feliz del mundo o iniciar una pelea interminable. Mi futuro se encontraba en sus manos. Estaba dispuesto a preguntarle incluso si alguien nos escuchara, no me importaba, pero no era su caso. Así que primero decidí salir de la habitación para ver si Kyoko-chan ya había despertado.

Al salir me preocupé mucho cuando no la vi por ningún lado. Después de ver su nota lo comprendí, si la llamaban por trabajo no había otra cosa que hacer. Por otro lado, tendría tiempo de aclarar las cosas con Senpai. Regresé a mi cuarto e intenté despertarlo. Lo sacudí del brazo con cuidado y lo llamé varias veces.

- Senpai, ya es de día.

- ¿Eh? ¿Qué paso? Preguntó mientras tallaba sus ojos y al notar que se encontraban húmedos los limpio disimuladamente. Se giró un poco para que yo no lo notara y se puso nervioso.

- Ya es de día.

Después de darse cuenta de donde se encontraba se sonrojó, no mantenía contacto visual conmigo.

- Eh, verás, yo… e-estoy aquí porque…

- ¿Senpai tienes hambre? Prepararé el desayuno. Lo interrumpí cambiando de tema. Sabía que estas situaciones lo incomodaban mucho y no quería que se sintiera así, no después de que estuve entre sus brazos toda la noche. No planeaba atacarlo con preguntas desde tan temprano, encontraría el momento adecuado y hablaría con él.

Posteriormente fui a la cocina y mientras preparaba el desayuno el silencio se hizo presente. Senpai se sentó frente a la mesita de la sala y disimuladamente volteé un par de veces a verlo, estaba un poco decaído y parecía que estar pensando en algo bastante serio. Cuando terminé, serví la comida y me encaminé a la sala. Trataría de animarlo mientras desayunara y primero le daría seguridad.

- Senpai, aquí está el desayu…

Mis sentidos se paralizaron y mi cuerpo se congeló. Me detuve a medio camino mientras mi boca dejó de producir sonido. Los platos se volvieron demasiado pesados o quizá mis brazos débiles porque ya no pude sostenerlos. Cayeron y produjeron un estruendo que alertó a Senpai. Yo permanecí estático, encerrado en mi mente y sin poder gritar por auxilio.

-¿Morinaga, qué te sucede? Se levantó con prisa y se agachó para recoger lo que quedaba del desayuno y platos rotos. Mis orbes no se movían, vi cómo se acercó a mí pero no pude seguirlo con la mirada; era escalofriante. - ¿Cómo puedes ser tan torpe como para tirar la comida? ¿Eh? Dirigió su mirada arriba para verme. - ¿Morinaga qué tienes? ¡Oye, respóndeme!

Senpai no podía hacerme reaccionar pero se asustó cuando caí de rodillas. La gravedad aumentó y mis piernas flaquearon. Sentí un feroz frío recorrer mi cuerpo. Todos mis sentidos bloquearon la realidad y como si estuviera viendo una película en mi cabeza miles de imágenes pasaban por mi cabeza controlando mis cinco sentidos. Oía el susurró de palabras en mi oído que poco a poco se volvieron más claras conforme las escenas más nítidas.

-.-.-.-.-

- Estar a tu lado es doloroso.

- ¿Qué es lo que dijiste?

- Te amo senpai, la verdad es que soy gay.

- ¿Qué clase de broma enferma es ésta?

- No es una broma, es la verdad… yo…

Recordaba la ropa que vestía y el aguado dolor de cabeza que entonces me aquejaba. Volví a sentir mi corazón marchitarse en proporción de que mis palabras escasearon y su expresión fue de confusión y repudió. Supe que me odiaba, supe que lo nuestro no podía ser jamás. Mi cabeza fue descendiendo lentamente mientras sus pasos se alejaban y me dejaba en soledad.

Kết quả (Anh) 1:

In the evening, while I was sleeping, I had a dream of my childhood. Those beautiful moments I spent with my mom, short but wonderful moments. Also on the excited which was to know my older brothers, something that was never fulfilled, the father of them I was a bastard. My dream was slowly darkening becoming a nightmare. Life with dad was not the best; I was working late and drank much, but never did I lack nothing or at least I thought. Love was what it missed. Discovered it when he was secondary, the first time that I fell in love, unfortunately a person of my own sex. The way in which took my confession was the worst, after that I suffered all kinds of abuse until I graduated and went to a high school where no one knew me. I changed myself completely to avoid teasing and to have a relationship with someone amara and I corresponded. The reality is that never ran such relationships because when they learned the truth they humiliated me. Not left me another exit to transfer me over and over and over again at school. Did it as many times as necessary. The transformation I did greatly displeased my father, never put a hand upon me; up to that time. That day I ran home. After that I left school, I took advantage of the beauty of my partners believed to discover in me, before finding out the truth clear is, and I started working as a model. It was my only way to get ahead and survive.-Why all my memories return at this time?Just I woke up, I turned the futon and I moved out. Yesterday I decided that he should give them privacy and let them some alone time. He sensed that they had to speak, they do not feel comfortable with my presence, so it would do them a favor.-I didn't have chance to say goodbye, he could exploit to visit.I wrote them a note telling that for work, that would be my excuse, would be somewhere for three days. I took my bag and left. They don't miss me and arrange the heavy atmosphere that felt to her around.POV MORINAGA-Do not just want your body, also I wish your heart -I heard a voice whisper; It was mine. I remembered once again as Senpai had saved me from that caught fire, of how the fire consumed everything in its path and felt abandoned and then the desired rescue. It was always who I saved, was my superhero, I felt indebted to him and did not know how to thank you. Could not find other ways to show you how much I love it; my ideas are depleted.-What is this feeling so warm? It is pleasant.I slowly opened my eyes to find myself with a new day. I blinked several times as I was rather sleepy and I moved to awaken. Something obstructing my movements.-What is this? A hand? Not are two? Someone is... hugging me? Who?-Mo...-rinaga whispered close to my ear.-DO I SEEEEEE! Senpai?Carefully I scrambled to turn around to see it. He was still asleep and his arms were resting on the side of my bed. He made a gesture of displeasure and to feel the lack of heat crouched by wrapping his body in the Savannah.-What is what it does in my room? Why was hugging me? Plus... huh?I looked at him carefully and noticed that there were tears in his eyes. His expression denoted sadness but his breathing was slow and leisurely.-He was crying all night? But why?He voluntarily came to my room and was hugging me seemed the more tender, but see that she was crying to sleep broke my heart. He was so sentimental and I was unaware that, for me, it was someone quite transparent and honest in their lies. I didn't know how to proceed. If you woke up you probably would have to face him and ask him something that is very important to me; your answer could make me the happiest person in the world or start a fight endless. My future was in their hands. He was willing to ask even if someone heard us, I didn't, but it was not the case. I first decided to leave the room to see if Kyoko-chan had already awakened.Upon leaving I worried much when I didn't see it anywhere. After seeing your note I understood it, if they called it for work there was no other thing to do. On the other hand, it would have time to clarify things with Senpai. I returned to my room and tried to wake him up. I shook the arm carefully, and I called it several times.-Senpai, is already a day.-Huh? What happened? He asked while he carved her eyes and noticed that they were wet clean them secretly. She turned a little so that I would not notice it and got nervous.-It is day.After account where was flushed, not kept eye contact with me.-Eh, you see, I... e - I'm here because...-Senpai hungry? Prepare the breakfast. I interrupted him by changing the subject. I knew that these situations uncomfortable so much and didn't you feel so, not when I was in his arms all night. He planned not to attack him with questions so early, would find the right time and would speak with him.Then I went to the kitchen and while preparing breakfast silence was present. Senpai sat down against the table of the room secretly turn over a few times to see it, was somewhat listless and seemed to be thinking about something pretty serious. When I finished, I served the meal and I walked into the room. I would try to cheer him up while it paw and first would give security.-Senpai, here is the breakfast...My senses were stopped and my body froze. I stopped half way while my mouth stopped producing sound. The dishes have become too heavy or maybe my arms weak because I could no longer sustain them. They fell and produced a sound which alerted Senpai. I stayed static, locked in my mind and be able to scream for help.-Morinaga, what about you? Rose in haste and bent down to pick up what was left of the breakfast and broken dishes. My orbs were not moving, I saw how approached me, but I could not follow him with the look; It was chilling. -How can I be so clumsy as to throw food? Eh? He directed his gaze up to see me. -Morinaga what do you have? Hey, answer me!Senpai could not make me react but got scared when I fell on his knees. The severity increased and my legs making faltered. I felt a fierce cold through my body. All my senses blocked reality and as if you were watching a movie in my head thousands of images passed through my head controlling my five senses. He could hear the whispered words in my ear which gradually became clearer as the sharpest scenes.-.-.-.-.--Be beside you is painful.-What you said?-I love you senpai, the truth is that I am gay.-What kind of sick joke is this?-It is not a joke, is the truth... I...I remembered the clothes wearing and watery headache which I then endured. I went back to feel my heart shrivel in proportion to my words lacking and his expression was of confusion and repudiated. I knew that I hated, I knew that ours could not be never. My head was descending slowly while his footsteps moved away and left me alone.

Kết quả (Anh) 2:

At night, while sleeping, I had a dream of my childhood. Those beautiful moments I spent with my mom, short but wonderful moments. Also excited about what was to meet my older brothers, which never came true, for their father I was a bastard. Slowly my dream was becoming a nightmare dark. Life with Dad was not the best; working late and drank a lot, but never did I need anything or at least so I thought. Love was what was missing. I discovered it when I was in high school, that first time I fell in love unfortunately a person of the same sex. The way she took my confession was the worst, after that I suffered all kinds of abuse until I graduated and entered a school where nobody knew me. I changed myself completely to avoid ridicule and to have a relationship with someone I loved and I corresponded. The reality is that these relationships never worked for when they found out the truth humiliated me. They did not let other way than to transfer me over and over and over again from school. I did it many times as necessary. The transformation did greatly displeased my father never laid a hand on me; until that moment. One day I ran home. After that I left school, I took advantage of the beauty that my partners discover believed in me, before learning the truth is clear, and started working as a model. It was my only way to succeed and survive. - Why are all my memories back now? Just woke up, folded the futon and moved to exit. Yesterday I decided I should let them privacy and time alone. Sensed they needed to talk, would not feel comfortable with my presence, so do them a favor. - I had no chance to say goodbye, it could take advantage to visit. They wrote a note warning that work, that would be my excuse, I would go on somewhere for three days. I took my bag and left. They do not would miss me and fixed the heavy atmosphere that is felt around. POV Morinaga - Not only do I want your body, I also wish your heart - I heard a voice whisper; was mine. He remembered once again as Senpai had saved me from that fire, how the fire consumed everything in its path and felt abandoned and then the desired rescue. Always was who saved me was my hero, I felt indebted to him and did not know how to thank you. No terms found other ways to show you love; my ideas are exhausted. - What is this feeling so warm? It's nice. I slowly opened my eyes to meet a new day. I blinked several times because I was sleepy and moved something to awaken. Something was blocking my movements. - What's this? A hand? Are not both? Embracing someone is ...? Who? - Mo ... -rinaga murmured close to my ear. - EHHHHHHHH !? Senpai? Carefully I slipped to turn to him. Still asleep and his arms were resting on the side of my bed. I made ​​a gesture of displeasure and feel the lack of heat it curled wrapping his body in the bush. - What you doing in my room? Why I was hugging me? And ... huh? What looked carefully and noticed that there were tears in his eyes. His expression was sad but her breathing was slow and deliberate. - Were crying all night? But why? He who has voluntarily come to my room and was hugging me seemed quite tender, but see that she cried herself to sleep broke my heart. It was such an emotional person and ignored that, to me was someone still quite transparent and honest in their lies. I did not know how to proceed. If you woke probably have to face and ask something that is very important to me; their response could make me the happiest person in the world or start an endless fight. My future was in their hands. He was willing to ask even if someone heard us, did not mind, but it was not the case. So first I decided to leave the room to see if Kyoko-chan had awakened. Upon leaving I was very worried when I did not see anywhere. After seeing the note I understood, if called for work there was nothing else to do. On the other hand, it has time to clarify things with Senpai. I returned to my room and tried to wake him. I shook him gently by the arm and called him several times. - Senpai, it is day. - Huh? What happened? He asked as he carved his eyes and noticed they were moist clean surreptitiously. He turned a little so that I would not notice and got nervous. - It is day. Then he realized where he was flushed and not maintained eye contact with me. - Hey, you see, I ... I-I'm here because ... - Senpai hungry? I make breakfast. I interrupted changing the subject. He knew that these uncomfortable situations as much and did not want to feel well, not after I was in his arms all night. No planned to attack him with questions so early, find the right time and talk to him. Then I went to the kitchen and made ​​breakfast while the silence was present. Senpai sat at the coffee table and surreptitiously turned a few times to see him, I was a little down and seemed to be thinking of something pretty serious. When I finished, I served the food and headed to the room. Try to encourage him as he would have breakfast and security first. - Senpai, here is the complimentary breakfast ... My senses were paralyzed and my body froze. I stopped halfway while my mouth stopped producing sound. The dishes became too heavy or perhaps my weak arms because I could no longer sustain them. They fell and produced a sound that alerted Senpai. I remained static, locked in my mind and unable to scream for help. -¿Morinaga, do you? He rose quickly and reached down to pick up what was left of breakfast and piper. My orbs did not move, I saw approached me but I could not follow it with his eyes; It was chilling. - How can you be so stupid as to throw food? Huh? He glanced up to see me. - Morinaga do you have? Hey, answer me Senpai could not react but scared me when I fell to my knees. The increased severity and my legs buckled. I felt a fierce cold through my body. All my senses blocked reality and as if watching a movie in my head thousands of images ran through my head controlling my senses. He heard the words whispered in my ear that gradually became clearer as the sharpest scenes. -.- -.-.. - Living next to you is painful. - What do you say? - I love you senpai, the truth is that I am gay. - What kind of sick joke is this? - It's not a joke, it's the truth ... I ... remembered the clothes he wore and the watery headache then ailed me. I again feel my heart wither in proportion that my words were scarce and his expression was one of confusion and rejected. I knew he hated me, I knew that ours could never be. My head was down slowly while his footsteps away and left me alone.

Kết quả (Anh) 3:

At Night, while I slept, I had a dream of My Childhood. Those beautiful moments I spent with my mom, short but wonderful Moments. Also on what he was excited to meet my older Brothers, which was never fulfilled, for the Father of them I was a Bastard. Gradually Dark, My Dream was becoming a nightmare. Living with Dad was not the best;Worked late and drank a lot, but I never took nothing, or at least that's what I thought. Love was what was missing. I discovered it when I was in High School, the first time I Fell In Love With Me, unfortunately a person of Same Sex. The Way You took my confession was the worst, after that I suffered all kinds of Abuse until I graduated and got into a School Where nobody knew me.I changed my whole person to prevent the teasing and having a relationship with someone I Love And My Place. The reality is that such relationships never work out well when they find out the truth I humiliated. Left me with no way to Transfer again and again to School. I did so many times as necessary.