-Do not want to let me... you have to retrieve you idiot.-Are Eh... What is talking about? Why is Senpai here? There is no way that has found me... perhaps this is do a fever-induced hallucination?I watched the anguish and as passing the back of his hand in an attempt to dry her tears. Between darkness, knelt beside my bed, looking for my hand and held it gently. Put my hand against his forehead, I could see him plead as felt as warm and cold water mixing and I soaked. His sobs were silenced by the strong current of water and gradually their wishes not reached my ears. His voice died out slowly.-Morinaga...His hands taking mine, transmitting to me their fear, trembling. He sighed. Broke and I noticed it shattered. Kiss my hand gently and fortitude.-I will not looking for you.Soon as I heard his sad statement sleep me beat. I didn't have the strength of articulate Word. He rejected my weakness, he never took the moments that stood before me. He turned his back to luck, or perhaps she gave it to me.I went back to wake up, this time much more confused. A nurse was doing his routine check-ups when it happened. I tried to remember my situation but it took me some work. I freaked out that woman when I called with a cry to who clung my hand during the rainy night.-SENPAI! It was heard in the room when I opened my eyes with terror.-Please, please calm down. It is recovering still from the complications of its operation and won't do you any good. He took care that I was not to be a strong movement or I lift.-Miss you must know it is not the case? I turn to see her desperately.-What you should know?-A person, a man, came to my room at night while it was raining. Holding his hand and reached to push it a bit without realizing.-Do rain? That was two nights ago. He concluded.-Do it two nights ago?... but he was here not so?-It was real, I'm sure it was him.-Do the?... I was not on duty that night, but rain was presented very last time of visits so I doubt that someone has been entered without permission. He said as he inquired in his memory.- But I remember this safe that did not see anyone?Looking at my obvious concern and apparently important, kindly asked several of his companions but confirmed me just the painful truth: no one had arisen. No one remembered someone with the description I had given.-It cannot be just an illusion.Explained me that I had fever for several days and that combined with sedatives could have caused that vision. I didn't understand but I was forced to do so. There was no hope, there was no doubt, he had no why engage me in a lie, a trick my mind and attempt to cloud my way.My health was gradually improving. I was hospitalized for several days more, and later got discharge. Psychologists not abandoned me and continued until I was able to overcome the deep depression. Every day I forgave trying to believe in my words. Wishing that all wounds were washed by the time.-Haven't done anything wrong, you took your decision and although flawed, it was what you thought best. You forgave and you release.Listen to me continuously say that made to begin to believe it, thinking that he could forgive me. The burden had been placed on my shoulders was decreasing, it could enjoy once again of the activities carried out. The taste for the kitchen, the realization by the targets reached in my work, everything turned to bring me happiness and could occasionally smile with sincerity. It was love me every day though in moments of weakness you ashamed to see the scars that now accompanied me. See my naked body before a mirror caused me some anxiety and feelings.After an unpleasant experience with my last operation I decided that it was not necessary to do more. A thinner face would always be to see me in my reflection and impossible I forget this misstep. It was a good reminder. I cut my hair and went back to my former life, a new life. This was a period of change, of decisions, be ambitious for the first time. I worked much more than anyone else and with satisfaction he could call me me himself a "doctor". I climbed as much as I could in the enterprise hierarchically and I could feel as the vacuum began to fill up. He had a good team and myself mostly to my work than in any other areas of my life. I returned to have the same deal with people surrounding me but he was not taking anyone so seriously; Maybe because I didn't want to be hurt.-Morinaga-san, Morinaga-san... would you like join us for a drink? all colleagues are going and want to us you will.-I'm sorry to say that I have other commitments. In truth I am not be able to accompany them.He was an expert liar and evader.-I don't live too much with you, I don't want to take their love.-It is a pity that you can never join us. He is always working more than others, you should take a break.-Having to supervise several projects at the same time is not easy, but I can not complain. I laughed amicably. -It will be on the next occasion.That was always my reply.They were flying four years before my eyes. Being immersed in the meantime work became impossible to realize this. I was who commonly went on days like Christmas or new year, there was nothing to celebrate or someone that I wait at home. It was so stubborn to just asking my days off when I forced my condition. He fell sick and exhausted for a few days and then returned to my stressful pace of life. It looked like a drug addict entering a few days to rehabilitation and returned to the streets for more. My life became something that could afford without putting in the first place to work.-So much that he hated that Pope was not at home and only speak of their blessed work.He laughed and teased me as ironic that life was. If you couldn't find something that would give meaning to my life again he would end up collapsing in the hospital; how much rancor had taken by that place. I tried to spend more time in my Department but loneliness was not my best friend, was a complete torture. My head hurt and they buzzing my ears with the depth of silence; something unbearable. I also tried to spend time with my colleagues, but that was nothing more than an endless number of empty talks. They got drunk while they talked about work and occasionally talks become much more personal to make progress overnight.-Ne, ne... Morinaga-san, do you not have commitments truth? I was asking one of the few surviving girls to the twelfth round of drinks.-Eh... well... I went down with nervousness the wiski which was to my mouth.-No, now that I think about it, it's pretty good looking so insurance should have a cute girlfriend... He made a stew crossing arms.-B-kind I... I went into panic. I hated having to face that kind of questions; one of the many reasons to avoid leaving since arriving at certain hours of the night everything began compromising.-Akemi, don't you think that these going very far. Gave him a light nudge one of his friends whispering in his. -Although there are no rules out of work it is still your boss. Behave please.-Morinaga-san does not pay attention. She likes to join us but it is a bad drinker as you can realize. Distressed River one more of my subordinates.- But what's wrong with wanting to know Yui? * hick * could see that had reached its limit several rounds ago. -Bring something stronger that my jar is empty!-Akemi, low table please!Fun was the company all but inevitably they wanted to know more about me thats what friends, seek not? That dark past was dragging it until today and that image of him pleading and anguished amidst the light of Thunder, could not forget it. I occasionally visited between dreams and sometimes nightmares. Not dreamed so often it but it was clear that he had not closed properly that chapter in my life. That door still remained ajar.The most humiliating was achieved when filtered in my moments of pleasure. His voice ringing in my ears, your skin against mine, its flavor, the vibrant essence. The passion of kisses and hands covering my back. I was caught in the middle of this old addiction and then everything ended up in tears of bitterness. He was no longer beside me, it was not appropriate or reacting to my touch. He not already drawing my silhouette with the tremor of your touch. I wanted to see this test passed. Is forget forgot who and conclude the story that never began possible to love someone for so much time? Still I could not deny that question.I talked to my supervisor and asked for a change to another branch of the pharmaceutical. Nagoya was the only vacancy within Japan. Again the life taunted my misfortune. Before you would have killed for a minimum chance but arising today begged to be able to deal with my reality.-This is also temporary... is "nothing is forever" not so Senpai?It was as if my destiny be chained to that place did many times more to die in that city who received me with open arms? How many more opportunities would give me? And how many would be able to withstand?-There is no bad to last a thousand years... and in any case, there is no body that hold it.I looked at the contract before me and after hesitating a few seconds I ended up signing what are two years more in that city? I had been avoiding for so long and yet returned. Probably this place was where was my home.
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